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"TiredOfTheMoonInHerEyes.1"

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2005-05-25 :: http://www.stwa.net/scrawl/viewtopic.php?t=20262

"She's still asleep?"

"Can't hear a word. Trust the EEG."

"I'm tired of trust, Jim. I mean, look at her!"

"Jon--"

"I know."

"I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault. It's not anyone's fault. Things just got out of hand."

"Still, I feel responsible."

"Well, that's natural. We both are."

"Kind of you to say."

"Look, I'm wracked with guilt. Just trying to convince myself. Bits of honesty slip in."

"I can't get the image of her car flipping out of my head."

"Me neither. You know, I've never seen a car flip, in real life."

"It's a lot like the movies, only faster."

"You've seen a car flip?"

"Exercises."

"Faster, huh. I wonder what was going through her head."

"Probably the test launch."

"Probably. She did always have the moon in her eyes."

"Probably the last thing she saw."

"That's good, at least. She deserved that much."

"I'm really--really sorry."

"Yeah."

"Think she's dreaming?"

"God, I hope not."

"Why?"

"Nightmares."

"Really?"

"Yeah. Couple of weeks, maybe a month. I found notes that she was thinking of seeing a shrink if it kept up."

"Serious, then."

"Yeah."

"Wow. I mean, that could have compromised her launch right there."

"She wouldn't talk about it, though."

"Night sweats and all that?"

"Yeah."

"I wonder if she expected--"

"Maybe. I worried, at times. But it didn't seem to change anything."

"Still the same old routine?"

"Yep."

"She was dedicated."

"Obsessed."

"But you loved her."

"Yeah. Yeah, I did."

"And she loved the moon."

"Yeah."